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dinocrisisfan · Joined: 03 Jun 2008 Posts: 163

Check it out.

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shirt-n-tie-boy · Joined: 13 Jun 2008 Posts: 85 Location: Lothian, Scotland

Peter (dinocrisisfan) - please visit your GP. I'd suggest you take along a print out of your diary page with you. It doesn't matter why or how you are the way you, you can get some help, you deserve it and are entitled to it, there is help available for you - please use it.

Mal Content · Joined: 24 May 2008 Posts: 156

Dinos, no matter how bad a hand you think you have been dealt, at least you are still playing. Sometimes, Jack high can beat a good pair; you just need a little courage to play what seems to be a crappy deal.

badjesse · Joined: 15 Mar 2008 Posts: 73

Peter, I rarely read blogs for this long but I did in this case, you've had a pretty tough time mate.
I've had a close friend going through similar feelings and as other people have suggested you should really print this out and take it along to your GP. They can help if you let them, good luck and keep your chin up.

Mr Page · Posted: Wed Jul 02, 2008 2:12 pm Post subject:

Hey Peter. I would like to tell you a couple of things from another way of thinking and a couple of facts if thats cool.

Using suicide as an option can be settling and calming place in your mind, because you feel that you are taking control back. Making an "I'll decide" decision brings empowerment.

The reality is that it is the loneliest place to be. The act of suicide is never quick and painless, its the single most scary and lonely thing anyone can imagine.

You sound like a nice, sensitive bloke: a trait which is rare these days. Don't place too much importance on other people and your relationships with them, concentrate on your aspirations.

The beauty of life is that you never know whats around the corner.

"The trick is to keep breathing" a great book, go buy it.

And seek a helping hand as the other posters said. Depression is a trance like state, it can be mended. You have to realise there are other stronger parts to yourself.

Keep on keepin on man....................seriously.

I wish you well

Razz

fiddlestix · Posted: Wed Jul 02, 2008 2:36 pm Post subject:

Hey Dino-man. I just want to add my voice to the others on here. There is always a way 'up' even if you can't see it at the moment. It doesn't sound like you've had any professional support at all....just lots of people reacting negatively to you. You must speak to someone who can help you. There are people out there who do give a shit and by speaking to one of them, you're giving yourself a fighting chance of living a decent life.

dinocrisisfan · Joined: 03 Jun 2008 Posts: 163

Well, what the bloomin' fuck am I suppost to do when the lady I'm looking for is out of bounds? My ex-girlfriend Laura was from Stenhouse / Saughton originally. I could not have a decent relationship with her because her pals kept annoying me and I decided never to go back, until 2007. And, we dated in 2005.

I know she's still somewhere in Edinburgh. But people just keep trashing my inbox with abuse, instead of helping me out like a Good Samaritan would do. I can't find Laura anywhere, and I'm sure this "Margaret" person she knew is reporting my post, as it keeps disappearing from the list. It was unfeatured here.

http://edinburgh.gumtree.com/edinburgh/07/25710407.html

One of Laura's neighbours was emailing me, offering me advice on how to find her. Then when I started sending her rude emails, she bailed out. Then all of a sudden, Laura (yes, THAT Laura) now has a Bebo account!!

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And it seems a sensible Gumtree member (and I guess there aren't many) had police come to my house today. Well, it wouldn't be the first time. But a big thank you is in order to whoever did it.

God knows, people do care after all...

fiddlestix · Posted: Thu Jul 03, 2008 9:36 pm Post subject:

Yep, they do. But don't leave it at that. You're looking for help in the wrong places. Please get yourself professional help.

dinocrisisfan · Joined: 03 Jun 2008 Posts: 163

What about Laura?

fiddlestix · Posted: Thu Jul 03, 2008 9:40 pm Post subject:

I don't know, mate. You need to speak to a professional person about that. They'll help you figure things out.

rodneyT · Posted: Thu Jul 03, 2008 9:59 pm Post subject:

Dinocrisis, i didnt read your blog for basically i couldnt be arsed...but come on the general idea i get is that youve been dealt a bad hand.... you have your health (at the end of the day that is the most important thing). tomorrow is always a new day and things if bad on monday will look a hell of a lot better on friday, as they say time heals. theres always someone worse off than you....ok your not homeless eating rats in an african state but gee you could have been....
forget ex girlfriends move on(and guess what the chances are you'll move onto something better), things happen for a reason you may not know now but one day you might.
so chin up....remember if things are shit wipe it off your shoe and think tomorrow will be better.

pstitch · Joined: 11 Mar 2008 Posts: 292

tell laura i lo ove her
tell laura i ne eed her
tell laura not to cry Twisted Evil

pstitch · Joined: 11 Mar 2008 Posts: 292

cant believe i was worried enough to cotact police when i first read this post and thought he was going to top himself. Embarassed

fiddlestix · Posted: Thu Jul 03, 2008 11:48 pm Post subject:

pstitch · Joined: 11 Mar 2008 Posts: 292

Peter Ross Anderson (January 26th 1986 - February 14 2009) was a sweet n' soulful solitaire, whose heart stopped for Laura.

pstitch · Joined: 11 Mar 2008 Posts: 292

Once I've wrote all my valuable notes down, it's the stairwell to Heaven for me.

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Pregnancy

My youngest sister Marie is pregnant. The baby is due in the autumn. Additionally, all my sisters have flown the coup. Me being a friendless fuck, therefore, cannot. I could have had a child years ago. I will never be anything now, because I keep getting screwed.

The Final Days

I'm going to end my life via a (hopefully) quick suicide, after many years of bullying, heartache, online feuds, lack of social acceptance, and money. I don't want to, but I probably have to. Otherwise, I'm gonna keep getting screwed out.
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pstitch · Joined: 11 Mar 2008 Posts: 292

dinocrisisfan · Joined: 03 Jun 2008 Posts: 163

I doubt that was you. And I really do not like your e-anonymous attitude.

And if you've got something to say, say it to me in person. I'm all ears and I could talk for hours at a time.

pstitch · Joined: 11 Mar 2008 Posts: 292

believe me it was me. i have my reasons. seriously please see your doctor. i do care and i dont want you to harm yourself

dinocrisisfan · Joined: 03 Jun 2008 Posts: 163

Do I know you? Somone from The Horror Is Alive perhaps.

You're like, 12 posts into this forum. Joined March 2008. And so far you're just coming across as a weirdo. Worse than me.

And I don't say that often.

pstitch · Joined: 11 Mar 2008 Posts: 292

dinocrisisfan · Joined: 03 Jun 2008 Posts: 163

Well, there's no need to feed the trolls. You can keep replying to me, but you will simply go unanswered.

Enjoy being ignored. I hope you have a productive time here.

pstitch · Joined: 11 Mar 2008 Posts: 292

unanswered?
you always answer Laughing

dinocrisisfan · Joined: 03 Jun 2008 Posts: 163

You just keep trash talking behind your keyboard. I'm sure it makes you feel tough n' all that rot.

God knows, if I've learned anything in my 22 years of life, it's THAT PEOPLE LIKE YOU ARE LOWER THAN GRASS.

pstitch · Joined: 11 Mar 2008 Posts: 292

You just keep trash talking behind your keyboard. I'm sure it makes you feel tough n' all that rot.

God knows, if I've learned anything in my 22 years of life, it's THAT PEOPLE LIKE YOU ARE LOWER THAN GRASS.

22 years of life - a mere baby
it doesnt need to be a constant struggle you know!